Sanoviv: The Grounds & The Fitness Center

This will be a quick post (HA HA HA).

I have received a few questions about the grounds, and the fitness center.

Well, as I mentioned, I hadn’t been able to get into the fitness center until this morning – when we had a Stretch class there. So I took a few photos for you. The first photo is from the door, towards the back wall (the “long” side of the room). The next photo is taken with my back against the “short” wall, looking out the window. A couple of shots from each corner – and then what I referred to in a previous post as the “I Love Lucy waist wiggler” machine. Finally, a photo of the entirety of the dumbbells in the place – I am so glad that I brought my TRX and bands! Hubby actually worked out with me yesterday, and though he had “trepidation” doing the ring rows from the wooden wall ladder in our room, everything was fine. So there you go – if you (like me!) had been looking for something to show you what’s in the fitness center – here it is!

I also took a few photos of the grounds:

You can see that the grounds are mainly grass. Dr. Wentz dug up all the old (chemical-fed) grass (and dirt) from the original property, and replaced it with grass that doesn’t get anything but tender loving care (okay, and a lot of water . . . and dandelion picking . . . and mowing . . . and organic fertilizer :-) ) The first photo is the fountain out front. The next is the view outside the tea room sliders. Next is the grassy knoll from the patio outside the tea room, and one of the patio, then from in front of the fitness center from two angles. The big high rise that you see next door was built for “old surfers” who want to have a place down in Mexico and to just “step outside” and ride the waves at KM 48!

The grass is used for Grounding walks – which hubby has been doing every morning when the grass is still wet, before going up for his first IV. By the way, hubby does NOT know I’m keeping this blog, so let’s keep that a secret between all of us, shall we?

I took a photo of the snack today, because it was just so doggone cute. They were wee sesame bars. Not sure if you had the Helva sesame honey candy when you were a kid – it came in like 3 “sheets” that all stuck together? I loved it and these tasted just like it. I’ll also include a photo of breakfast, which was “nut-ola” – because there are no “grains” in it. They had ground flax seeds, whey protein, and hemp to add to it (in the photo, that’s what’s on top), fresh-made coconut or almond milk, plus pears, papaya, and blueberries. My friend who has been to Sanoviv sent me the cookbooks that she had received after her trip (via .PDF). They have the nutola recipe, the sesame/honey “candy,” the paleo bread, and the rest. Let me know if you’d like a copy. She has smoothies on her website too – they are HERE. The last photo is from our “Quick Prep” workshop class. We learned how to make concentrated electrolyte drink ice cubes.

I’ve been very bad today. The “ski couple” I mentioned left me with a David Baldacci book called “Long Road to Mercy.” And I’ve been unabashedly (well, a little “bashedly”) reading it all day. They said the protagonist “reminds them of me.” She is a six foot tall bad ass FBI agent in her 30s. She is an Olympic weightlifter – missed the U.S. Team by one kilogram in her snatch – “I’m more a clean and jerk girl,” she says at one point and I laughed out loud. Me, too! I’m more than a little chuffed that they think of me that way! They left this morning. Boo hoo :-(

So, a story about Meditation. Remember yesterday, when I said we were to think of a word to bring “in” with the inhale, and “out” with the exhale? And mine were “Soothe” and “Release”? I asked hubby what his were, or if he did the exercise at all. He said he had, and that it had left him feeling very relaxed and satisfied.

I asked whether he was willing to share his words with me. He said he would:

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(Breathe in) Negroniiiiiiii……

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(Breathe out) Escaaaape…….

Sanoviv: Day 4

a wee monk on a swing.

We were told that the weekends are pretty easygoing. Saturdays (today) hubby will have a few treatments – unclear if there will be any treatments on Sunday.

Today started with lemon/cayenne/hot water, then Energy Medicine, then Meditation. Though it seems like we are doing this every day, apparently it’s Thursday through Saturday. So we’ll see what happens on the other days! It seems likely that they might have some sort of service tomorrow, being Sunday? Not sure.

By the way, by way of update, the Amish family are Amish. (I edited the blog from yesterday where I was trying to decide Amish/Mennonite/old-school Mormon, but I asked today.) I spoke with the wife today. I didn’t get her name, as they don’t wear the nametags. They’re from Ohio, and he has Lyme. He works in a carpentry shop, and it had gotten so bad with the brain fog, aches, etc. that he couldn’t work or put “simple things” together.

I think that different “diseases” sort of seek others out here. She spoke about other folks here that are being treated for Lyme – one is from Australia, one from Ireland, a couple others from the U.S. Because you wind up in the same treatment “area” and with the same meals (many patients have supplemental, or entirely different, food), you do meet folks that are doing what you’re doing. I happened to be reading in the living room in the Mansion, and she came in to work on a puzzle. You really only see this couple in the lobby area, because they take their meals to themselves. His main treatments revolve around the hyperbaric chamber.

Aaaaaand, back to our morning. In Energy Medicine, we learned two new protocols – the handout is above. They are all from the book that I mentioned yesterday. The first one today was to rid yourself of someone’s energy – in the description it says to “flatten your hands” – what this means is that the hand that is on the “up” arm has palm toward the ceiling, the one on the “down” arm has palm toward the floor. Looks like I didn’t quite photograph the 2nd page correctly, but you get the gist.

As we were doing the Energy Medicine, we watched the pelicans fly by over the ocean. Sanoviv is on a cliff, so you get the ocean breezes and “brine” smell, but you’re not on the beach/on the water. You’re cautioned not to go there (not sure how you would anyway – rappel?) because the beaches and water aren’t the cleanest, and of course, this is all about the Detox.

The pelicans all seem to be flying North – in one “gang” we saw 31 birds! I really love pelicans. I remember when I was young, the DDT was making pelicans’ eggshells too brittle, so that when the mom bird sat on them, she would break the eggs. I was in I want to say third grade when the teacher told us that there “might be no more pelicans” because of the DDT. Right around this time, we also had a huge oil spill on the Bay, and it mired and killed a lot of birds. We have a place just down from our house where they were trying to clean the birds of the oil, but the problem was that this would strip them also of the essential oils that helped them float – something like that (hey, I was in 3d grade). Not a great time for pelicans. Makes me super happy to see them here. Apparently they’re Wentz’s “talismanic” bird, too. When he was going up and down the Mexican coastline to try to buy a property for what would become Sanoviv, he got to this one and a pelican flew down and landed at his feet as he was standing at the front door. He didn’t go any farther, said “Well, this is the place.” So says the tour guide, mind you.

At Meditation, we talked a bit more about the “Why” of meditation. (New psychotherapist led today’s session.) She reiterated that the reason for doing Meditation daily is to be Present. But what does that mean? If you’re feeling an emotion that doesn’t serve you, you’re generally either in the Past, or in the Future. Guilt? Past. Remorse? Past. Fear? Future. Anxiety? Future. So Meditation is geared to keeping you in the Present, at least for those 15 minutes. It “grooves a new neural pathway” for really understanding what being “Present” means. When “monkey brain” tries to take you out of the Present (“Did I lock the door?” (Past)…..”What are we having for Breakfast?” (Future)….) just calmly thank your Brain for sharing, and go back to what you were concentrating on, in that Present moment.

We were to concentrate on the waves today, but one of The Group was out in the tea room, playing the piano. Which wouldn’t have been terrible, if she hadn’t been out there playing the same ~16 notes over and over and over. And over. Finally I just “leaned into it” and made that part of my meditation, too. (Yes, she really did do that, the entirety of the 15 minutes. She must have been pushing hard on the keys too, because you could hear it all the way down to the Meditation room. It wasn’t a scales/finger exercise – it was a tune. Over. And Over. And Over.)

We were also to think about a word and color on breathing in, and a word and color on breathing out. The “in” was to be refreshing, “nutritious for the mind,” the out was to be letting go. So, for example, Gratitude, Anger. I started with a different “in” word (can’t remember it right now) but I wound up with “Soothe” (and a light turquoise color) and “Release” (and a mustardy yellow color).

Between Meditation and Breakfast, we had a Tea workshop. They have a professional kitchen in the Mansion where these workshops are held. We worked on herbal hot and cold water infusions. I happened to have my ThinkSport thermos, which became a Hot Topic. :-) The instructor loved it; she said that the only thermoses she had seen had glass on the inside, which she “seemed to drop and break within the first month.” (The ThinkSport is double-walled steel, so it keeps things cold without sweating, and hot for a very long time. In fact we had tea last night, and this morning the left over tea in the bottle was still warm.)

We had breakfast at 8:30 a.m. Yes, I’m really getting hubby up at 6:15 (when the TV starts playing Mozart) to do his bloodwork, get his supplements, etc. This is generally about two hours after he goes to bed back home! He has his “vitals meeting” on the 2nd floor, cayenne/lemon tea, Energy Medicine, Meditation, Breakfast and such before he would even be awake at home!

This was my favorite meal so far! Strawberries, and pancakes of “Paleo Bread” (so said the sign) with macerated blackberries for on top, and then nut butter made from putting “whatever nuts were left over – brazil nuts, walnuts, cashews, almonds” (I asked) then “adding just a little bit of coconut oil until it smoothed out – but not too much.” It was delicious. I’ve asked my friend who has been here whether these recipes are in the cookbook that she was given when she visited. As you can see from the photo, the Paleo Bread has cacao in it – and it smelled like chocolate. Nom Nom Nom!

Mostly today, during hubby’s infusions, I have been reading the “How Not To Die” book. It’s written by a doctor, advocating a 100% vegan diet. About 1/3 of the book is just endnotes and medical citations. It was recommended to me by a friend who has had a heart issue, and I just recommended it today to a friend who’s husband dropped from a heart attack this weekend (fittest guy you’ve ever met, etc. – he’s on the mend thanks to quick thinking and a great hospital system. Love you guys A&T!) The Preface, Introduction, and Chapter 1 are all about the heart. I’m not sure that I will go vegan after reading this, but it’s good to know the things that you can do to up your chances. Yes, of course, Cancer is in there too, and a whole host of other disease.

Wheat grass hour, snack time (housemade coconut yogurt – super sour, not sweet – with blueberries), lunch time with dessert (little squares of a butternut squash dessert), back to the room. Nap. Hubby gave me a “lick” of one of his supplements – phosphatidylcholine.

lunch dessert.

Imagine the nastiest Brewer’s yeast you can possibly imagine. The taste doesn’t hit you right away, which of course made it far funnier to watch (I’m sure). I was just about to say “Hey, this isn’t so bad,” when it hit me. It does leave a slightly yeasty flavor in your mouth (I mean, unless you gag it out) which isn’t terrible, and hubby says that he’s getting around to liking it. My guess is this is like Vegemite without the salt and spices. The first time you taste Vegemite, you’re like Oh My GOD what is THIS? And then you suddenly are ordering it from Australia because – well – there’s nothing like it :-) Mind you, I think that the salt and spices make Vegemite – if this is the base that he started from, Cyril Percy Callister (“inventor” back in the 20’s) really is a magician-chef.

Next? Green drink time (celery, pineapple, lime, cucumber and chard – pretty tasty for a green drink), and in about 2 minutes hubby starts his procedures again (colon hydrotherapy, another IV infusion). So I’m going to do my workout. Today is cardio day – I will sub stair climbs for the run, instead of the 10 x 30 second sprint at 100% effort with 30 second jog between I will do the jump rope at the same effort level (or climb stairs, haven’t quite decided), then I will do the waiter walks with the EmPack. My “Crossfit wife” Sharon is doing the workouts too – she did the Cardio yesterday, and she warned to start the waiter walks light because there are a lot of them. So my guess is I will load the EmPack up with the bladder that’s about 1/2 full, which should be around 7 pounds. I already tried – the hardback book that’s still in the pocket allows me to hold the bag up without it sagging around my hand. (Such a genius, am I!) I’m to do glute bridges and then a weighted tabata plank – those I can do with the EmPack with the two 1/2-empty bladders and the one full one (which will make it about 30 pounds, give or take). Dinner tonight says that it’s with “Live Music” – Hubby has trepidation. (“Mariachis, I know it…Please, don’t let it be Mariachis….” LOL) Then we have a “Hollywood movie” in the theatre. We’re dead curious to find out what it is – as everything is geared to Detox, believe you me, it’s not going to be John Wick III!

Opened my second of the “Advent” cards from my friend. I laughed out loud. These are just spectacular cards, and she has such a good sense of humor. Inside, she said that – since I can’t get to Instagram from here – she had printed me out some dog memes because, I mean, what else is there? I really laughed. Just the best. Big Air Kisses, C!

I’ll leave you with a few of my favorite pieces of art from the Mansion. Most of it is what we saw by the 1,000s in Vietnam – assembly-line or you might say “Sausalito tourist art.” But they do have a few pieces that I like – the dancing manatee (or walrus) sculpture is to the “covet” status :-) (You can’t really tell, but it’s pretty tall – I’d say about 1.5 feet. Too hard to pack into my suitcase. ;-) )

OK – so I lied, I didn’t leave you, I’m baaaa-aaaack . . . To tell you I finished the workout. Today was Cardio. As I mentioned, my “Crossfit wife” told me to be sure to do the waiter’s walks light, so I did them with a +/- 7 lb. EmPack bladder. Still rough! 6 x 50′ each arm (I did all the way from one end of the hallway to the other, then switched). Between the waiter’s walks were 20 glute bridges – so I took the 7 lb. bladder, put it into the EmPack (making about 37 pounds, plus or minus) and did the bridges. At one point the EmPack was wet and I thought “oh crap, one of the bladders is leaking.” I took them all out, didn’t find any leaks . . . then realized it was sweat! (TMI?)

Instead of the prescribed 10 x 30 sec sprint, 30 sec jog, I did 10 x 30 sec jump rope as fast as I could, 30 sec mini-tramp. A little odd, but it worked :-) Finally, did the tabata plank with the 30 lb. EmPack. That nearly killed me. Just as I finished (lying on the ground panting), point hubby showed up and said he had seen a sign downstairs – dinner had been moved from 6:00 to 5:00 – and it was 5:12, let’s go! Not possible in my then-condition, but after a quick shower, off we went. We sat with a couple I’d met previously – turns out she was a former US Ski Team skier (he had been a skier then moved into selling ski equipment – that’s how they’d met) – and in her off season, she’d rowed at University of Washington. They were so amazing. By what she was saying, I think they were in their 70s – you would never know. Unfortunately they are leaving Monday – I say “unfortunately” because hubby really liked them! (I mean, this is the man that doesn’t know a thing about basketball, baseball, football – but has a subscription to the ski channel! :-)

For fun, here are my printouts (from my watch) of the workout yesterday (“Push”) and the workout today (“Cardio”):

Might not blog tomorrow – I do have some work to do, and I’ll probably take this “blogging time” to do it. So – likely see you Monday! Thank you again for all the Comments!

Sanoviv: Day Three

Here we go, here we go, here we go again . . . I have received some messages with respect to computer access, so I will start there.

I was gifted an Ethernet cable and adapter, to enable me to use the computer in my room. The best part is the cable is 25 feet, which allows me to use it over on the chair/couch area – the Ethernet plug is part of the phone/on the far side of the Queen bed, so without it, I would be “stuck” there. That allows me to type up these blogs and check email. However, we discovered the first night that things are still “blocked” – access to Netflix, Xfinity, Amazon Prime, YouTube, Facebook, Instagram, Marco Polo . . . So while I can post this blog (on WordPress), to link it to Facebook and Instagram, I have to do that in the “computer room” over in the Mansion. It’s not that bad – it works fast – but it’s the only place that I can do any of the “things” listed above.

the tea room

I did get a chance to watch the “Marcos” that a number of you had sent – thanks! It was so great to see your smiling faces. I sent a quick Marco out to some of you, at least showing you the computer room, and a tiny corner of the ocean! I am not sure how far their wifi extends, but I also don’t want to use the phone/computer in areas we are “not s’posed to.”

Today was lemon/cayenne hot water, then again Energy Medicine and Meditation. In Energy Medicine, we did Emotional Freedom Technique work (EFT or “tapping”). The psychologist walked us through a portion of the leading book in the area, “Energy Medicine” by Donna Eden. During Meditation, we were to focus on a word, though if you didn’t have one, you could focus on the ocean waves (quite loud – you can hear them even if the sliders are closed), or on your breath. I was going to do the waves, but then got “hit in the head” (metaphorically of course) by the word “Release.” So I did the 15 minute Meditation concentrating on that word.

Aaaaand, once again, here I am, with a snarky comment. Judge-y McJudge-pants, that’s me. A woman from a certain group (I’m going to stop there, you decide) came in late and settled onto her zafu in the front row – literally right as the “bell” sounded for Meditation – with her shoes, cell phone, and water bottle! She was politely instructed to take them all back outside . . . How one can scurry past a hallway lined with 30 pair of shoes, canvas bags, bottles, etc. and just settle yourself in? Fascinating.

We went to breakfast afterwards, forgetting that there was a stretching class in the Fitness Room that I had wanted to check out. It wasn’t on hubby’s “schedule” – I think that they manage “crowd control” this way. The Stretching Class was from 8:00-8:30, but we were slated for Breakfast at 8:00. My guess is that some folks have the class on their schedule? Or that you just need to “know” that Breakfast actually is served from 8:00-9:00, and you can “decide” whether to do the Stretching? A bit unclear.

Hubby’s schedule contains all his appointments, meal times, and some of the workshop times. But the “overarching” schedule (that caregivers get) contains extra workshops, classes, and the like. I am trying to take the copy of his schedule that I get and annotate it with things from the “overarching” schedule. I just missed this one. I also annotate it with the times that he is supposed to take any sort of supplement. He gets a big paper bag of them each morning, containing wee ziplocks with times on them. Last night, turns out that he had missed everything from about 5:00 – 8:00 p.m. So today, I just put them on my copy of his schedule. Because, ya know, Caregiver.

One thing the Oncologist mentioned yesterday was stem cell implant therapy. The patient is given an implant that apparently works for about six months. It’s a new therapy that addresses building up the patient’s own system. I asked him about the Vitamin C + doxycycline regimen that Broffman mentioned to us, and he said that they don’t do that protocol, as the studies are “old” and he doesn’t think that it is valid. I’m not so sure about that.

As for the stem cell treatment, yesterday we came down in the elevator with a gal who is getting it (Detox/Stem Cell Therapy), and her nametag was pinkish-red. Today, just by way of curiosity, I started really trying to look at nametags. A number of Orange (cancer) tags, many Yellow (caregiver) tags. The Chinese group tags are either pinkish-red or yellow. There is an Amish couple here – haven’t been able to see their tags yet. He has the bushy “beard-only-no-mustache” beard, and hair cut in a “bowl” at the back (hard to explain). Her baby, Katie Mae, has a tiny white bonnet – the mom has a long blue scarf that she wears on her hair, which is up in a bun. Katie Mae is a little cherub – so sweet, and so well behaved. She’s at the “alert, bubbly, but not walking yet” stage. The man is wearing the Sanoviv “prescribed” clothing. His wife, however, is in the ivory Sanoviv hoodie, over a floor-length dress made of the same “sweatpants” fabric, in the same ivory color. Herbert commented on this, but if you were Orthodox Jewish, etc. you would need to have some sort of accommodation – nice to see that they are all set. I think the man is the patient, because I’ve seen him taken into a room without her. Will try to talk to her tomorrow to find out.

For Breakfast today we had frittata, an incredibly bitter cooked green, oranges, and grapes. I was super curious if I would have my “egg issue” with the frittata (Leann – like Michael) since we’re in the “Healthiest Place On Earth” :-) Turns out that – yep! Just the same!

My thoughts have always been that fats cause this issue. Let’s just say that 20 minutes after eating them, all eggs except ones I make – or that are poached or hard boiled – go “right through me.” I had surmised that perhaps it was an “industrial spray-on fat” causing the problem, which I don’t think that they’d use here. I have the same issue if there is too much melted butter on something (like veggies), too. Anyway – suffice it to say that – sigh! – yes, same issue. As the only thing that we had to eat other than the fritatta were the bitterest cooked greens ever, oranges, and grapes, I guess I’ll just have to “brave” the eggs when they show up.

As I type, it’s time for “wheat grass,” so off I go! More later!

I’m back – miss me? I waited around for hubby in the lobby for 20 minutes, then gave up and came back to the room. I was to go with him to his Oncology follow-up, but as he was already up on the 2nd floor (“Special Care,” a/k/a the hospital-hospital), I’m guessing that the doctor saw him and just called him in. The only issue with this is that – when he sees doctors alone – he doesn’t tell me much of what is said. He also doesn’t really remember that well what he’s told. So, I guess we’ll just see what we see!

looking out from “The Bridge” (a/k/a Quiet Room)

In about half hour is Snack Time, then, as I mentioned already, hubby has his follow-on dental exam, an hour of free time, and then lunch. After lunch, hubby has a mind/body appointment, then we have green juice (“Oh Yay!” says hubby LOL), after that he has his fitness evaluation (which he does not want me to come to – silly boy), then another Quiet Room hour for him. After that is Golden Milk Time, an hour, dinner time, then the documentary Grounding, then bed. So while I could work out during the Dental/free hour, I think that I will do it during his fitness eval/quiet room period since that way I’m free to do what he wants to do during the “free hour,” and I can use his Dental follow-up time to do a bit of work that I have.

I have a “hang” as part of my workout today. I’ve been looking at the top “lip” of the clothing/TV cabinet, which is about 9 feet off the ground. If I stand on my tip-toes, I can grip it and get off the ground (mind you, my nose is pressed to the cabinet side). So I’m thinking I will do that today. There aren’t really any chairs in the room (just plush chairs) – if the table was a little shorter I might be able to use this lip to do jumping pull ups on “Pull” day, which is coming up in a few. I could try to stand on the mini-trampoline and use that instead, but there are all sorts of comedy sketches that I can see in my head, “launching off” from that position . . .

So, how are we doing? I’m doing fairly well on the “eat until not hungry” thing I blogged about before. There’s plenty of food here (even if it is Liquid Day). The food is pretty good for having no sauces, seasonings, etc. (There is a container of salt, pepper, and cayenne powder (!) on your table to use.)

Hubby seems a little out of sorts – not quite sure what’s up. (The photo at the top notwithstanding.) I know that he hasn’t eased into being here yet. Maybe he’s in a Grief cycle. He’s doing a lot of Bargaining. :-) He even asked the doctor if we’re allowed “off campus” on any day and (interestingly) the doctor said that if you really wanted to, someone could take you to Rosarito Beach (which is just down the road) and if you really wanted to, though “he didn’t say this,” you could have lobster, margaritas, or whatever you like. I wonder if they tell this to everyone, or just the Cancer patients.

For your viewing pleasure, here are those photos from inside the Mansion, as promised :-)

Today I met a couple that were here for the Stem Cell Therapy – he had the ultrasound that’s required beforehand, and they discovered he had a bladder/prostate issue. The doctor called his doctor stateside, and he was taken to a hospital here for prostate surgery – 4 hours later and he was “whisked” back, a bit dazed, but fine. He said he hadn’t realized he “had an issue” but “while he was golfing, on some courses” he’d “need to be sure to hit the head before heading out,’ and then he’d “be out there and suddenly have to go again.” Okaaaaaay Mens – please? Get this stuff checked out?

We were surprised to walk into Lunch to tables set with chargers and cloth napkins! The Lunch was very tasty – Dinner a bit less so. Dinner was quinoa with a “topping” of garbanzo beans and other things – which gave me gas (TMI!) There were two salads that were tasty though – a spinach, strawberry and walnut salad with balsamic, and a green apple, jicama, avocado and “some other things” salad. I actually went back to have a bit more of the avocado salad, as I wanted something else to “mute” the beans. Hubby immediately said “Are you still hungry?” Good on him! I was not hungry. So I gave half of the salad to him. Hmmmm, was that his ulterior motive? :-)

Hubby had had an issue with one of the IVs, and that’s why he hadn’t “made it back down” to meet me. The good thing though is that the Oncologist went over his panels, and the only thing that showed up was that he “wasn’t getting quite enough protein.” That seems amazing to both of us, as protein isn’t generally one of our concerns. Everything else looked good though, and his ultrasound, Xrays (teeth), etc. all were fine.

One thing that I realized today was that all the water bottles from which you’re to fill your personal one are not only glass, but they all have a word written on them (a la Dr. Masaru Emoto). How’s about that!

And – for your viewing and laughing pleasure, I will leave you with a photo that hubby took of me when he came into the room in the middle of my workout today . . .

Sanoviv: Day Two

When last we left our intrepid Health seekers . . .

Last night we had a very good lecture on the Mind/Body Connection. Nothing new – well, to us – such as Masaru Emoto’s slides from speaking words into water. I slept like a rock – we have separate rooms, with me in a small internal room with a twin bed, and hubby in the main room with a queen bed. He has to get up every 2 hours due to his neobladder, and been months since I have not been sleeping with that.

The thing is, generally I’m fine. (I think I’ve blogged about this before.) But if he doesn’t catch the alarm and it wakes me up, then I’m toast. (It’s usually the 4:00 a.m. alarm that he sleeps through – until I “accidentally” kick him while I’m getting out of bed, now wide awake!)

He doesn’t want me to sleep in there (my snoring notwithstanding). But it’s where I’m “supposed” to be – we’ll see whether he keeps arguing to have me in the main room. He finds the bed too hard – I think that it’s great. Maybe the queen is harder than the twin?

The TV really did “wake us up” in the morning, even though hubby had closed it into the closet it lives in :-) We got up, and hubby had to go (has to go, every morning) to the 2nd floor to be weighed, measured, logged, and supplement-ized. (Supplemented?) I went down to get some of the lemon/cayenne tea, and then we met up in the “Energy Medicine” session followed by the Meditation session.

A couple of the protocols that we learned in “Energy Medicine” were:

To stop worry, anxiety and help with sleep, cross your right arm over your left (or, if you do yoga and know “eagle pose,” you can do “eagle” arms, again, right over left), and cross your left foot/calf over your right. Breathe in through your nose, out through your nose or mouth. Relax into it. When you feel like it, put your tongue gently against the roof of your mouth as you breathe in, saying (in your mind) “Relax” or “Rest.” When you breathe out, put your tongue down, saying “Release.” Do this as long as you feel like it. (We did this for about 5 minutes.)

To stop a panic attack or an anxiety attack, you can put your finger out at arm’s length. Focus on it gently. Deep breath in through your nose, out slowly through your nose. Then look past your finger, and focus on something in the middle distance gently. Breathe in/out. Keep doing this calmly. Eyes are very important in “tracking danger,” and by changing the focus you are exercising the nerve endings behind your eyes, sending a “brain hack” that there is no danger. Once you understand how it works, you can do it without “holding up your finger” – all you need to do is focus on something that’s an arm’s length away, then something in the middle distance. (So you can do this “without people knowing.”)

After those classes, we were off to Breakfast. Today was a “liquid day” (“Oh YAY,” says hubby, rolling his eyes). I took a number of pictures of what we had for Breakfast, “snack,” green juice, “whole food smoothie,” Lunch (which did have a “chunky soup” as well as a smooth one, and then some croutons and “onion rings”), golden milk, Dinner. I’ll just put them in a “gallery” here.

Today hubby had all of his “first consultations” with his doctors. While he did the dentist, psychiatrist, “Quiet Room,” chiropractor and the like, I first had a “Quick Food Prep” class (making smoothies), and then did my workout. I accompanied him to the Nutritionist and the Oncologist. He particularly liked the chiropractic appointment. There was a lot of muscle testing involved – at one point, when he was testing as weak, the chiropractor put hubby’s finger in a glass of water, then re-tested and the muscle was strong. The chiropractor told him he was dehydrated and that he had to drink 1/2 his body weight in “water fluids” (water, sparkling water, herbal tea) a day.

As for my workout, I’ll say this about the Fitness Center. What Fitness Center? My understanding was that, while it was small, it was available. This is not really correct. You can use the Fitness Center in a group class (of course), but if you want to do a personal workout, you can’t do it during a group class, nor can you do it if the fitness folks are doing an assessment. I went by there three times today, trying to get in to do my workout. Each time I was turned away with a firm head shake from the trainer, who was “busy assessing.” Finally, I just decided that I was running out of time, and made the choice to do what I could in my room.

My Crossfit wife and I had done the first Day of my workout plan the day before I left. She thought (rightly) that in this way, I would feel that I had “gotten started” already, and would keep at it. (Ah, wives. They know EVERYTHING!) That day had been Pull – pull-ups, jump rope, banded pull-overs, stuff like that. Today was Push.

It was to have started with a 200m Run, 50m lunges, then 50m broad jumps. As it’s frowned on to Run on the walking path, I decided that I would walk quickly (that’s the best I could do) up the stairs to our room. (Seven stories.)

I then lunged my way down the hallway and back, and broad jumped (if you can call what I do a “broad jump” – white girl don’t jump) down and back.

Next were banded spiderman pushups, which turn out to wreak havoc on my bad shoulder. I was to do three sets – after having real trouble with my right side, I swapped out and did just straight (banded) pushups. As with the mobility work that I had to do next, I was able to attach the bands to the wooden “ladder” on the wall no problem.

One wee “wrench in the works” was that part way through my pushups I discovered I didn’t have my wristwraps on, and my wrists started aching. I searched high and low, and couldn’t find them. Undaunted, I took my voodoo floss bands, and wrapped them a few times around my wrist, and finished the pushups that way. (Turns out that my wristwraps were in my EmPack – phew! But it worked, nevertheless!)

The actual “workout” portion of the day was to be slow dumbbell bench press, seated overhead press, and “L” press (one hand forward, one to the side). The problem was – no dumbbells. So I decided to use the EmPack.

I filled two of the bladders up full for the bench press. (So that’s about 30 lbs.) I lay down on the table, which was the wrong height and length for me to do anything except put my knees up to keep my back in the right position.

Here’s the thing – the EmPack sags if you try to do bench presses with it. I tried a number of ways, but then finally came upon the genius solution. I put a hardback book into the front pocket, then turned the bag with that side toward me. The book “braced” the bladders on the inside, and no more middle-bag sag! (See photo.)

When it came to doing the overhead “dumbbell” presses and the “L presses,” though, 15 pounds in each hand (one full bladder) was way too much. So I let some of the water out . . . until I could lift the bladders. How many pounds is that? Haven’t got a clue – I want to say that I let about half of the water out. So maybe 7 lbs a piece? Funniest part of course was that as it was water instead of a stable dumbbell, my arms shook a LOT in “stabilizing” the weight. (Taking photos with the “dumbbell bladder” was laughably hard.)

I did get out to take a few photos of the “mansion” today, but I’ll save those for tomorrow. A few things of note:

Get a ThinkSport hot/cold bottle. I brought one (the biggest size). It’s great to get hot water in from the “Tea Room,” to bring back up to your room. (We particularly like to have herbal tea before bed.) There are lots of herbal teas down there (this is where you get the lemon/cayenne water every morning), but we brought an orange Tazo tea that hubby particularly likes. Having this bottle is genius. (We did have to “liberate” a couple of mugs from the dining room though.)

Bring your Nalgene bottle! I was told/read in other folks’ reviews that I couldn’t bring my own bottle, that I would be given a “special Sanoviv bottle.” The thing is – that they’re small Nalgene bottles! As such, if you have a larger sized Nalgene bottle (especially one with the “bite top”) then you should pack it. Unscrewing the top of the bottle every time you want to drink water (which is lukewarm, by the way . . . apparently cold water isn’t great for your gut biome) is a pain.

Don’t forget your pill containers! I assiduously counted out all pills into their bottles . . . and then forgot the “daily pill” containers to put them into! Can’t believe it! So far, no one has given us heck about the supplements/pills we brought. In fact, no one has looked at anything. (Hubby keeps reminding me we could have come in with a “James Bond briefcase” of Absolut red label 100 proof, caviar and pate and no one would have been the wiser :-) ) The Oncologist (of course) wanted a list of everything – he took hubby off all of Broffman’s supplements except the Melatonin and DHEA. Hubby is “prescribed” (no joke) 2-6 pills every other hour, liquid iodine, liquid something-else-that-tastes-terrible, and also that “Flora” stuff that you can get at Whole Foods that needs to be kept refrigerated.

And for your viewing pleasure . . . a “snuck” photo of one of the Chinese visitor tables – all on their cell phones. I am likely going to Hell for doing this, but, as noted in the last blog post, this is just too funny.

How’s by all of you??

Sanoviv: Day One

1. Flew from Oakland in to San Diego. We, of course, went immediately to the Amex lounge at the airport and tried to eat as much of every single verboten thing at Sanoviv. :-)

2. As soon as we got into San Diego, we were greeted by Ernie from Sanoviv. We sped through the border in the Express “van-bulance” (read: Toyota Sienna) lane. Ernie did note, however, that “This way is always easy, but it can take 4 hours to get back into the U.S.” It seems likely that this is why we were told to “only bring enough meds/supps for the trip” – not for the “Sanoviv portion” but for the border portion coming home. They have apparently confiscated prescriptions, supplements, etc. that came from the U.S., when folks have tried to bring them back. ?That really happens? Ernie said that we had arrived at the perfect time – the border is backed up for hours in and around “commute” time. (Our plane arrived at 1:00.)

3. We got to see “Trump’s Wall.” Ernie (Mexican heritage American) told us that “All Mexicans tunnel now anyway, this is such a waste.” It’s RIGHT on the ocean – and metal. So it’s already covered with rust. “In a few years, you’ll be able to kick through it. They didn’t even primer it.”

4. We saw where they filmed Titanic/Master & Commander/Pirates of the Caribbean on the road, about 6 KM away. It’s a huge facility, and includes the gigantic “tank” in which the storm scenes were filmed. The Pirates ship is there, floating peacefully, and you can barely see the “town” over the wall. Didn’t act fast enough to take a picture.

Capone’s island out the window

5. We also saw an island (“One of the Catalinas” per Ernie) that was owned by Al Capone. He had a big casino out there, and used it to receive/stage/ship alcohol during Prohibition. Ernie’s sister just retired from the FBI, and we discussed how it was a woman in the FBI who figured out how to take Capone down. All the other FBI (men)folk assigned to Capone’s capture had tried just about everything related to all his “business ventures,” but Capone always got off. She one day said, “HEEEEEEEY, is he paying TAXES on all his income???” Ernie said to this day, there is a “code” that you can put on your taxes where it says “Occupation.” Drug dealers apparently call it the “Capone Code,” meaning, you just put that code as our occupation, everyone know it means “ill-gotten gains,” but if you pay your taxes, you can’t be “Capone’d.”

6. They held a couple of lunches for us – it was one of the few “meat meals” there are in a week, and it was fish! (I’m allergic. No, not shellfish – fish-with-fins-and-gills fish. Shellfish are not allowed here anyway. More on that in a second.) They immediately re-made me the lunch with chicken. It was salad from the garden, the chicken, and mixed veggies, also from the garden.

view from our balcony

7. We had a tour – I will try to take some photos tomorrow. Our room is on the 7th floor of the hospital, looking out at the ocean. All the rooms look at the ocean – the “opposite side” of the building is for storage, etc. The “mansion” (main house) was bought by the current owner (Myron Wentz – my rowing coach’s mom’s husband, and how I found out about Sanoviv) from a family named Levi from San Francisco. They had apparently told folks on the tour for years that it was “of Levi-Straus fame” until someone in the know told them “Um, nope, just the Levi family.” Wentz dug up all the dirt after he bought it to get rid of chemicals that had been used on the lawns, etc. The “mansion” still contains the furniture from the Levi family (kinda glitzy), including a fully mirrored bathroom where Mrs. Levi could see her fashions from “all angles,” a library, sitting room, and the like.

8. The Fitness Center is TINY, because they want folks to be outside, and not doing “stressful” things. It is also only open from 9-5, but the two times I tried to get in today just to look, the fitness coach was “consulting” so I was not allowed. I will try to take a photo tomorrow. Basically, looks like there are a couple of ellipticals (yes, as in two), they were set up for a “rebounder class” which had oh, about 10 rebounders (mini-tramps), there’s one of those “I Love Lucy” waist weight shaker things (where you stand up at the machine, put the big white cloth band around your middle behind your back, and turn the machine on??), then there were some dumbbells, some bands with handles, and a few yoga mats. But no “overheads,” so a bit unclear how I’m going to do the pullups required in my workout schedule – wrote my coach. While there are wooden “ladders” on the wall (and in our room), they are flat against the wall. When we had them in high school, there was an overhanging top bar at the top, so that you could (for example) put a TRX around it or bands for pull-ups, but not here. Hm.

9. “Swimming” pool is also tiny, in that it’s enough for maybe two people side by side – there are other pools too, but they are for Thalassotherapy. Walking “trail” is 8x around for a mile. You are discouraged from running. :-) I’m toying with the idea of running/doing farmer’s carries down the length of the hall outside our room. I can also run up the 8 flights of stairs on Cardio day.

dots in the middle = surfers

10. Sanoviv is at KM (Kilometer) 49 – one kilometer from KM 48 – a famed surf beach. So we see that off to the right from our balcony. And two miles down the road is the oldest and most famous lobster restaurant in the entire area (Puerto Nuevo), which has been “surpassed” in ratings now by Casa de la Langosa. Which, of course, we are verboten from visiting. (I went to Puerto Nuevo when I was going to UCSD and it was a shack – apparently now far more the “established restaurant”). Interestingly, our driver told us that now that the town is “famous” for its lobster, it has to import it in from Australia – the waters are all fished out. !!

11. Thursdays are “liquid” days – that means tomorrow. H already asked if he could put tequila in the green drink. ;-)

12. The day starts at 6:00 a.m. – those of you who know Herbert are now laughing bent over belly-laughs. They turn your TV on as an alarm clock! (There is also a bell system that rings when meals are being served – reminds me a bit of the “calls to prayer” in Turkey!) Internet access is restricted even on wifi or on the Ethernet – you can’t get to Netflix, Xfinity or YouTube for example, download books, etc. (Thank goodness I did that before we left). Lights out at 9:00 p.m. and they really mean it – all systems are cut. LOL! They said that folks used to stay up late and then be late to their appointments, which is not okay. I was told about 50 times that “as the caregiver” my “job” is to get hubby to his appointments on time. Oooo-kay!

13. There are a lot of folks here from China. They have a whole interpreter service, etc. Not sure why I found that interesting, but I did. Most folks were finishing lunch when we arrived (14 tables of 4 chairs a piece, so about 60 total “visitors” at once). There are a lot of folks here who obviously are going through chemo, etc. (Many bald heads.) We all have name tags – mine is yellow (Caregiver), hubby’s is Orange (Cancer), and we’ve spoken to a few folks where we have seen Red (Stem Cell Treatment), Green (Lyme), etc. Everyone is a patient or a caregiver. In the past, “big groups” could use Sanoviv as a retreat center, but they shut that down after so many patients complained. (As Wentz, the founder, also founded USANA, apparently it was an annual trip for big sellers, etc. No more. In fact, you have to sign a document that states that you will not “try to sell anything to anyone” or “proselytize” or “talk about your business.” Ha!)

14. Tomorrow is going to be a BIG DAY. We already have the schedule. Hubby has a TON of appointments with all his doctors. I will be attending the Nutrition and Oncology ones, but he’s on his own for Chiropractor, Psychiatrist, Dentist, Ultrasound, Maxpulse Stress Test. He gets blood drawn first thing, and given his first big bag of supplements (yes, really. Big bag. All in little timed baggies). Then we get hot lemon/cayenne water, and will both do the meditation and energy medicine class. After a (liquid) breakfast, I go and do “grounding” by walking on the grass, he starts his “not with me” visits. After wheat grass, a doctor’s appointment, a whole food smoothie and another doctor’s appointment, there is lunch, then a class on food prep, and after that he has an hour in the “Quiet Room” (more on that in a second), when I will be doing my day’s workout. As I said, though, my “job” is to get him to every appointment on time. So we’re still trying to figure out what time I have alone and when I’m to be with him.

15. Every bathroom has the required SQUATTY POTTY!

16. The ‘Quiet Room’ has all manner of energy-related devices. When we had our tour, they called it the “Bridge” (as in, of the Starship Enterprise), because there are a bunch of beds facing out to a huge bank of floor to ceiling windows looking out on the ocean. The treatments are: Biotron with Magnets (helps oxygenate the cells, regenerate tissue), Photon Laser (stimulates alpha brain waves, regenerates tissue after surgery), Ondamed (pulsed electromagnetic fields (PEMFs)/biofeedback – you can also charge the water in your water bottle with it), Rife (specific frequency electrical impulses that work to release toxins at the nerve-cell level), Equiscope (electro-stim microcurrent that reads the cell membrane’s electro-impedance and corrects it, charging the cell capacitance to ideal function and works on meridians, chakras, etc. – helpful with Alzheimer’s and Parkinson’s), Super Tuning (magnetic waves, laser color and sound stim which scans your energy field to figure out where the body requires grounding and energy support, the machine personalizes the therapy to you), Auriculotherapy (needle-fine microcurrent stim that does ear acupuncture, pellets are placed in the ear to prolong the treatment for 5-7 days), Bemer (stimulates the smallest capillaries’ microcirculation, reducing inflammation). No, I did not remember all that. I took notes, silly. ;-)

17. It’s required to wear the tan sweatsuits and tank tops with your name on a nametag. Nope, you can’t take them home. They launder them every day if you put them in the laundry basket they provide. They pick them up and replace them when they make up your room. For you to wash your undies etc. there is a laundry down the hall, free, stocked with the only laundry detergent they allow. You get to keep the “white label” Birkenstock sandals, the shoulder bag, the dry brush, and the water bottle that they give you – if you want to buy a shirt or jacket or tank top to take home, there is a gift shop. There are shorts, too, but (as a friend who has been here warned me), it is cool and grey here. Reminds me of Lima, Peru.

18. There are people here who follow the strict rules we were given, and there are those who do not. The cell phone “sneaking” is rampant! It seems that some folks have service outside of the computer room, because you see them hunched behind walls, around corners of the garden, etc. (I have to say, it’s kinda funny.) About 1/4 of the people here (maybe more) are Chinese, and they are by far the biggest users. When asked to stop, they look up and speak Chinese. No, I’m not being mean – it’s quite fascinating. They’ll put it away, wait for the staff to disappear, then pull it back out. You also see polished toenails, jewelry, etc. I tend to think that these people are caregivers, as some of the therapies specifically restrict nail polish and the like. There’s one gal from Texas that rode down the elevator with us who had 3 jingling diamond tennis bracelets and bright blue toenails. High bleached blonde hair, too.

19. My friend gave me cards to open up during the trip (they’re numbered, so I’m calling them my ADVENTurous calendar). Opened the first one today – laughed out loud! GOOD JOB, Claire ;-) Here’s the card, sitting on the “chi machine” in our room, which we haven’t quite had the nerve to try out yet. ;-)

20. We have a lecture after dinner today on the Mind-Body Connection, by someone in the Psychiatric division. But for now, that’s all I can think of ;-) Dinner in about 45 minutes. 

The Tyranny of Food Logging

I’ve kept this blog for a long, long time.

In fact, I started blogging – wow – nearly 20 years ago. My podcast ended ten years ago – before the podcasting “craze” even began.

So there are a lot of posts that revolve around “eating plans” through the years. Or at least, “through the years” since about 2007 – when I started putting on the pounds and trying to stem the tide.

I have tried a number of “eating plans” (a/k/a diets) via this blog. Pomroy, Working Against Gravity, Sexy Sculpt/Flexible Eating, you name it. One of the things that all these programs incorporate is food logging.

I am on my 476th straight day of Food Logging in My Fitness Pal. This is my longest streak (by far). I do have a couple friends (I see you, Lindsey, Patty, Lane) who put me to shame . . . they’re in the 1,000s of days. I know, because MFP shows you how many days your Friends have logged, how they’re doing (are they over or under their targeted calorie goals?), what they’re doing exercise-wise, when they last logged in.

I realized about a week ago that, with our impending month away at Sanoviv and its restrictive computer use, I won’t be able to track any more. Rather than finding this disconcerting, or upsetting (okay, okay, a little – everyone hates to break a streak . . . ), I’m coming around to realizing that it might be not only liberating, but this whole “logging thang” – for ME – is likely just a chapter of Disordered Eating, dressed up to be socially acceptable.

I think a little food logging can be eye-opening for many. It could point out that – Hey! You are eating a LOT of sugary foods! Or – Hey! You aren’t getting in a lot of protein!

For me, it was just another list to maintain. I’m a Virgo – I love me some lists. I tried (more or less) to be inside the “goals set for me” in all the various diet plans. However, as I already eat organic, grass-fed, low-sugar, low-gluten, etc., there weren’t a lot of “ah-ha” moments.

So what’d logging give me?

It gave me “permission” to find a way to have another glass of wine because – Hey! I’m under my calorie/carb/whatever goal – so bartender, give me another!

I use wine as an example, but it could be another handful of pistachios (carefully weighed and measured) or what-have-you. I still had rules – no alcohol except on the weekends or out with my “Coven” (local girlfriends), no eating past 8 p.m., always eat breakfast – but in general, “food logging” had taken me away from how to eat “naturally.”

My daughter and I were talking about this when we were together for my grandboy’s graduation from high school a couple weeks ago. (So Proud :-) ) She has been using a cookbook by Cassy Joy of Fed And Fit, that she heard about HERE.

One of the main take-aways from this book is that one should eat not until you’re full, but until you’re not hungry. Bob Harper also talks about this in his “Skinny” book series (his latest book, The Super Carb Diet, is covered in a podcast HERE). In other words – you should always be “a little bit hungry.”

Girls Gone WOD Podcast – the folks in the podcast links, and one of my clients – also just did a podcast based on a recent New York Times article on the Wellness Industry – you can find that HERE. This subject is top-of-mind and timely.

The Cassy Joy/Bob Harper “way” is how I used to eat. I didn’t log my food. I didn’t try to exercise more so that My Fitness Pal would give me “minus points” for doing it. I didn’t get out of bed to walk around the block to “make my ring close”/log 10,000 steps. I didn’t eat “three meals and two snacks” a day.

I didn’t obsess.

Well, now that we’re off to Sanoviv, it’s time to regroup.

This all became top of mind (for me) when a dear friend told me that he’d pay for a Premium subscription to My Fitness Pal for me, after I’d opined on Facebook that by leaving, I would be “breaking my streak.” (With Premium, you can put a “hold” on things like streaks.) I was touched, but then the lightbulb went off. I realized that I was actually looking forward to not logging.

Even though (in my head) it was originally that I was “not logging because I couldn’t,” I suddenly realized that I wanted to change the impetus. I’m not logging because I choose not to.

Today is my first day of “choosing not to.” I have another day and a half before we leave, but that’s why I am choosing to stop now. Not because we won’t have access while we’re away. But because I feel that it is not serving me, and in fact has lead to some Disordered Eating.

In talking about the length of the trip to my Mom and Dad (Father’s Day/Mom’s Birthday celebration yesterday), they reminded me that hubby and I had been away for 3 (and 3+) weeks before. When we hiked from Mont Blanc to the Mediterranean. When we had traveled around Turkey and then Austria. When we had taken a trip to Cambodia and Vietnam.

But the difference here is that, while we were gone for the same amount of time in these various “jaunts,” in each, we were constantly on the go, strapping on our hiking boots, getting in the car, seeing new things, running for the plane, and (me) logging it all in photos on Instagram.

This will be different.

For the time we’re gone, we only have one thing that we can do. Concentrate on Health and Wellness.

No packing and unpacking. No catching the bus. No following the map. No getting on the trail. No rushing to see one more museum, church, or sculpture.

So today, I have broken away from the Tyranny of Food Logging. And you know what I feel? I feel like now I have to pay attention. Weird, huh? I think that for a lot of folks, it works the other way around. An example that just popped into my head and gave me a little grin is a Catholic who sins, knowing that if he goes to Confession, he’ll get some prayers and everything will be set right.

But it’s supposed to be that you sinned sort of “on accident,” in a moment of “weakness,” and now you’re trying to make amends.

Me?

I had “sinned” on purpose, with the express idea that, by logging (a la Confession), it was all okay.

Yeah yeah, that’s just seriously weird. Or . . . Disordered!

Time to go pack for Sanoviv. I started putting things together on the floor of the closet yesterday (those of you who know me are already laughing and nodding). It’s hilarious. Since I was told by Admissions that their gym is set up for “cardio workouts” (like salsa, Zumba, and even a group mini-tramp workout) not strength training, I am bringing so many strength-related things! Bands, TRX, EmPack (with 3 bladders and the water bladder), voodoo floss bands, Natural Grips, wrist wraps, Kettlegryp, Lacrosse ball, workout journal, jump rope (we’re checking a bag, don’t worry, I won’t be sternly stopped for having a garrote in my carry-on). (NOTE: I am too lazy to set up an Amazon Associates account – so these links are just so you can see what I’m talking about.)

Since we are only allowed to bring pills “in their original bottles” with a “copy of the prescription,” and “only enough for the stay,” I just went through our prescription meds, assiduously counting out the right number of pills, putting them back into the bottle, and then putting the rest into a ziplock. :-) I printed out Broffman’s supplements prescription for the hubby and counted them out as well, then packed up my Her Vital Way supplements, with the hope they won’t be confiscated (no prescription). Those are on the floor of the closet too.

What else? Two pair swim goggles (hubby wants to try to add that to his routine), the prescribed sunscreen, a couple jogbras and 2 bathing suit bottoms (jogbra + suit bottom = triathlete swimsuit LOL), sunhat, a couple bras and six pair of undies, workout shoes, a lingerie bag and some Woolite, an Express Mail envelope with Advent-esque envelopes to open while gone from a gal pal, and… I think that’s it.

The funniest part of course is that for a “usual” trip packing extravaganza, it’s maybe a Lacrosse ball, and then a closet floor literally overflowing with clothes. As I mentioned before, this involves sitting a BFF on the bed with a “libation,” and giving her a “fashion show” of the various choices so she can winnow them down.

I guess tomorrow when I’m actually getting stuff into the suitcase with my BFF watching I’ll just – What? Model the undies? With a TRX around my neck and an EmPack on my back?

This will be my last post “Stateside.” The next will be from Sanoviv!

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If you’ve read this far – say a prayer for Coach Al, please. He had a massive heart attack while running, and at this writing is in a cold “coma.” He is a wonderful guy and his wife Trish is one of my besties. So – prayers please.

The New Normal

I mentioned in my previous post that we had met with Michael Broffman at the Pine Street Clinic to get our protocol during the “cyberknife” treatment and as an overview for what we need to think about not only at Sanoviv, but also into the future. Pine Street Clinic has specialized in evidence-based integrative medicine since 1982. These are my notes from that meeting, which I think are incredibly instructive for the “New Normal After Cancer.”

Broffman advised us to treat our month at Sanoviv as a place to get into a routine….to learn the curriculum and then carry it back in a “return home” program. He strongly suggested sticking with Sanoviv’s meal program – mostly vegetarian with low net carbs. He said that our follow-on plan should involve committing to, for 24 months after returning from Sanoviv, eliminating red meat, pork, lamb, etc. (whether or not organic/grass fed). Basically to stick with chicken (if 100% sustainably sourced), eggs (same), and seafood (ditto). He advised us to eat what we have in the freezer now (which we are – we are calling these two weeks our MeatFest(TM)!) 😉

Broffman reiterated that the Quantity that we should consume is directly related to Fitness. So, on any day we’re “desk bound,” we need to stay Vegan on that day. If we’re doing Strength work, we can have some animal protein. (There’s more below about “Fitness.”) That said, the human animal is an omnivore, and needs meat. Just not as much as the “now typical” American diet gives it — especially as most “so-called meat” is produced by BigFarm and contains the stress of animals “engineered” to get as fat as possible in record time . . . who live in terrible conditions, are fed on suboptimal feed, and are not treated as sentient beings.

Vitamin C IV treatment: This is something that is done at Sanoviv, and we are to get hubby’s calculated Vitamin C blood saturation. How this apparently works is that your target saturation is 350 nanograms/milliliter. So each time you do the IV, they will test to see how much they have to give you to get you to this ultimate saturation. If you get the IV and afterwards you’re only up to 150, next time they will give you more, until they know exactly what it takes to get you to 350 nanograms/milliliter. We are to bring that back, and then continue with this protocol.

Vitamin C + Doxycycline: There have been a number of published protocols of adding doxycycline (pills) during the Vitamin C IV, to deal with cancer stem cells. It has recently been shown that, like heart stem cells, bone stem cells, etc. there are actually cancer stem cells. Unfortunately, they are not responsive to chemotherapy. If you happen to hit one with radiation or cut one out with surgery then it’s gone – but the only systemic treatment for cancer (chemo) doesn’t kill them. Unfortunately, at some point the cancer stem cells “wake up, look around” and realize that there is no cancer in the body – and then busily start to make it. Vitamin C plus doxycycline is the latest leading edge fight against cancer stem cells. Although doxycycline wipes our your gut biome, etc., it’s a trade off that could be worth it, in the short term, as the Vitamin C IV taken with doxycycline is showing in trials to kill the cancer stem cells. Unfortunately you can’t just “get doxycycline over the counter” in the U.S., so if we are able to obtain any in an international pharmacy we should go for it – otherwise, try to see if the doctor at Sanoviv will add this to the Vitamin C IV protocol.

OM85 (“Broncho-vaxom”): This is an immunostimulant used with young children and old folks basically everywhere BUT the United States for lung issues. It boosts the immune system, working to increase a person’s natural defenses against a variety of respiratory pathogens. It is an oral treatment consisting of eight different strains of (dead) bacteria, so it sort of works like a vaccine to create an immune response in the lungs. There have been a LOT of papers written about it recently, in relation to potential uses in lung cancer, and OM85 is likely over-the-counter in Mexico. About a decade ago, an Italian cancer doctor published that 7.5 mg/day (10 days on, a month off, for 3 months) worked as a treatment for lung cancers. (NOTE: I did some internet sleuthing to try to find the article and link it, but without the name, came to a dead end.)

Beating Cancer

              The way to look at the whole “post-cancer” situation is as follows. Think of a timeline:

—————X->->->——————–Y->->->->—————–

X is where your immune system is. Y is where the cancer is. Each is moving forward, but if you can’t close the gap, you’re never actually well. “Catching up” is not the same as “Caught up.” This is the biology of how things work.

Western medicine basically says “We will buy you time, as you catch up.” In other words, they knock out the Y with, say, chemo. The problem is, that the chemo also sets your immune system (the X) back. The issue is that Western medicine “attacks.” And “Attacking” the disease is not the same as “Preventing” the disease.

Alternative therapies try to narrow the gap. The whole idea is to get the X in FRONT of the Y. The immune system must be “competitive” and ready for anything, not always behind and just working hard to catch up.

And this means lifestyle changes.

Post-cancer life must be organized around the strategy of narrowing the gap between X and Y, with the hope of jumping the X in front of the Y. And always remember that — while “giving up” things that are suboptimal for health – having good health is not a punishment. All the suggestions here might not be what you are doing now – or might mean not doing what you “want to do” with regard to eating, drinking, exercise and the like – but, post-cancer, one must persist for at least the next couple of years along this strategy, to stay in “synch” with the idea of closing the gap between the immune system and what it’s fighting . . . and then (hopefully) getting in front of it.

The Abscopal Effect:

The Abscopal Effect has been proven in trials and double-blind studies. It is a combination of radiation and immunotherapy wherein treating a cancer causes untreated tumors to disappear or shrink concurrently, outside the scope of the treatment. This has particularly been seen when Stereotactic Radiosurgery (“SRS” or “cyberknife”) treatments are the “radiation” part of the equation.

Cyberknife plus Immunotherapy leads to a systemwide immune response. The question is how to make this happen. Western medicine is trying to use various methods:

a.           CAR T Cells: In this protocol, T-cells (“fighter” cells) are taken out of the patient’s body and modified to produce specific structures called chimeric antigen receptors (CARs). Basically, they take your T-cells and expose them to your cancer, rewarding them for attacking that cancer. Then these fighters are grown and re-injected in the 100s of millions back into you. This has led to the most durable remissions.

b.           USC/Victor Longo: This is the fasting program that I discussed in my previous blog. It is basically a three-day water fast. In trials, what happens is this: During the 1st day, your body fights you (“Eat, Eat, EAT you IDIOT, I’m HUNGRY!”). On the 2nd day, your body’s “cleaner” cells cleans up anything that they see that is “easy to clean up,” because they don’t have any digesting, etc. to do. Then, the third day is the charm. On the third day, all the easily-cleaned things are cleaned up, there’s still no digestion going on, and so your “cleaner cells” go back over everything, and start going after older immune cells, terminating them. Think of it this way:

Cancer Cell

—X1—>—X2—->—X3—>—X4—>—X5—>—X6—>

In the example above, the T cells (X1 to X6) flow past the cancer cell. T-cell X5 is a month or so old, and a few days from being terminated by the body. X4 is only a day old. X4 is a “new, aggressive fighter.” X4 says to X5, which has passed the cancer by, “Hey, isn’t that a suspicious cell?” The X5 cell says “Yeah Sonny, I see it, but it’s a big body out there, and we have other things to do. We’ll attack it later.” But then it doesn’t. Since the T-cells speak to one another, the X4 has just “learned” from the X5 that it’s “not that important” to attack the cancer cell.

In the fasting protocol (and actually also the trained CAR T-Cells mentioned above), old cells like X5 are wiped out – so the newbie X4 cell doesn’t learn to “not attack” the cancer cell (or, in the CAR T-cell protocol, is specifically taught TO attack that cell). This means that the new T-cells work more effectively against the cancer.

While the USC/Longo/3 day fast protocol DOES drop your immunity a bit, the next day, when you start eating again, the trials have shown an unprecedented reboot of the T-cells and their ability and desire to fight the cancer.

There is also a “5 day fast-mimicking diet” for folks who just won’t do a 3-day water fast. But as my hubby did it during chemo, and the actual 3 day total fast protocol is the one being shown to have the best effect, we should presume that this becomes part of our long-term protocol.

USC/Longo recommends that every day you have a 14-hour interval of not eating/drinking (except water). While some are pushing this to 16 hours (in other words, an 8-hour eating “window”), the studies have been done on the 14 hour interval. Since Sanoviv operates on this schedule, this needs to be the “after Sanoviv” protocol for eating/drinking. THEN, every week, one day a week, have breakfast, then do a 24-hour water fast until the next breakfast. Just pick a day and do it. (Or dinner to dinner – whatever.) Finally, every 7-10 weeks, do the full 3-day protocol. This is what the research shows is optimal for killing the most cancer cells and revitalizing T-cells to their “fighting best.” Just pick the days, put them on the calendar, and get them done.

In sum: 14 hour daily interval of no eating, no drinking except water (or you can see it as a “10 hour eating window”). One day a week, eat a meal (e.g., breakfast), then just water to the same meal (e.g., breakfast) 24 hours later. Once every 7-10 weeks, full 3 day water fast.  

While the Abscopal Effect was incredibly important to try to obtain, unfortunately, as the SRS treatment was being done via our traditional Western medical situation, the Chief was unable to get the permissions to even do a “trial of 1” using the SRS with one of the additions above. Just not enough time to get it “through the system.” If, however, someone reading this is interested, the interventional radiologist Dr. Jeanne Stryker in Solana Beach does SRS/cyberknife plus immune therapy using either Keytruda or Optivo.

Supplements: Broffman prescribed a host of supplements for the SRS (as he had during chemo). We will receive an abbreviated protocol for the time that we’re at Sanoviv and when we return, he will re-evaluate. I would say what was prescribed, but I don’t feel comfortable doing that. If you’re in a situation where you want to explore ways to use integrative medicine for fighting what ails you or just reaching optimal health, please consider contacting Broffman at Pine Street. He has clients internationally, and in my opinion (as your first visit is about 90 minutes) is incredibly inexpensive for what you get ($500 for the first consultation and then any follow-on supplement changes, etc. – if your situation changes drastically and you need another full consultation, $400 for each). And – yes – they take plastic.

Fitness:

a.           Strength. Hubby needs to be doing strength work at least 30 minutes, 2x/week. Broffman likes the “Super Slow” protocol, which uses ARX equipment. Unfortunately, this is only available in San Francisco and Emeryville. There is a place in Mill Valley that uses MRX equipment, the pre-ARX equipment. ARX hasn’t caught on so much, because you have to lease it – you can’t own it like MRX. “Super Slow” was originally proposed by Arnold Schwartzenegger – i.e., having resistance in both parts of a lift. By way of example, pressing up in a bench press, but having another person there that is then “pulling up” on the bar when you’re trying to put it back down to your chest. See HERE for example. Hubby needs to concentrate on putting mass on, which is active tissue that will work for you, versus fat – and especially “toxic fat” – which works against you.

b.           Walking. At least one day a month of “long slow distance” walking is required. This means walking, for example, from home to San Francisco, and taking the ferry back. This should take a few hours. This will become a meditation – you “stop talking in your head” and just walk. Hubby is to keep doing the “quicker” (30 minutes) or “mid-range” (hills) daily, but needs to incorporate a long-slow distance once a month too upon returning from Sanoviv. As he is currently on disability, this needs to be his “work.”

c.           Swimming. Broffman particularly recommends taking a “holistic swimming” class. This is run by Russ Monsell in Tiburon of DynamicVitality.com on Tuesdays – you show up with money, a bathing suit, and a towel and he will run you through the basic/beginner class. The idea is that swimming is very helpful to your immune system, but ONLY if you’re not constantly fighting it. We are not “meant to” live in the water, and our system knows it, so is constantly, in the background, “fighting” it. The idea is to develop breathing and stroke dynamics that mimic what a creature that really lives in the water will do. No neck movement – just roll to breathe – low kicking – etc. This has been proven to immensely improve the immune system; however, it is relaxing at an immune level only if you are not defensive. You must “swim like a marine mammal” not like a “land mammal.” Your body has to think “I live here in the water.” Swim for meditative cardio.

d.           Baseline. Upon returning from Sanoviv, we are to get a baseline of skeletal muscle, fat (brown v white), etc. The company that does this, BodySpec, uses a modified DEXA scan. It is $45, and will give you metrics that you can then try to improve upon. It is on Broadway in San Francisco. They also have a mobile van that they take out sometimes, but the best metrics in the Bay Area are from this company.

The idea here is to have a baseline so that you can see as you make yourself more competitive with the disease – as you “catch” the X “up to” the Y, with the goal of “jumping” it.

Stress Reduction:

This is another mandated piece.

a.           Meditation. Broffman particularly likes the 10 day meditation routine retreat offered free worldwide from DHAMMA.org. The closest to us is in Yosemite in North Fork. It is the same program worldwide, just different languages. At the retreat, you are introduced to the “technology” of meditating. It is a silent retreat, Vipasenna style. It is an extremely popular program, however, so getting on their list is important. They will send out when the enrollment will “open” for the program, and it is full with a long waiting list 2 hours later.

                             Another suggestion locally is the Sonoma Mountain Zen Center. On Saturdays, they are open to the public. They are similar to Green Gulch, but ONLY meditation (no pottery, tea classes, gardening, etc.) It’s the standard: meditation, sitting, dharma talk, soup and salad. A very pretty place, up in Sonoma, acres of farmland. The owner has run the center for decades with his wife and his kids, some of whom are monks there.

Taking A Deeper Step, and Changing the Narrative.

After you try a few of these out, your responsibility will be to figure out “What’s the next deeper step after this for me?” Just go with whatever sounds intriguing, but with the goal of “Changing the Narrative.” By way of example, there is a group in Santa Cruz called 1440 Multiversity. 1440 is the number of minutes in a day. They have a protocol for “optimizing” the minutes. However, he finds it stressful to think of it this way – as in “don’t waste any minute!” Perhaps instead, think of it as how many hours you have in a week – block out when you’re going to be eating, sleeping, walking, fasting, yoga, meditating, whatever – and then calendar, and stick to it like it’s your job, to be sure that you “do them all” and don’t let anything slide, at least for the next 24 months. This often happens. You need to keep the goal in mind of “jumping the Y” – in other words, to get your whole “being” in “front of” the cancer instead of trying to catch up, or doing things that are suboptimal for the best health, which sets you back as your body rids itself of whatever you just did. (You know, the fun things like drinking wine and eating red meat!)

Changing The Narrative:  

If you change any aspect of an adverse story, it will affect your immune system. (Example: If you address what’s behind PTSD to help the body/mind to stop fighting that, the body can then move on to fight other things.) Changing the narrative affects the immune system and your entire micro-environment. And chronic stress (caused by thoughts or “dwelling on an unproductive narrative”) are particularly bad.

              So how do you get a New Story? It has been clinically proven that Chemistry follows Thoughts . Stressful thoughts -> Stressful chemistry -> Bad things happen. Change the story? Change the chemistry.

              Psychoactive plants: While meditation practice can be helpful, the biggest jump start that is being trialed now is using psychoactive plants/chemicals. Johns Hopkins is currently the leading researcher in this area, and they are comparing synthetic versions of chemicals (psilocybin, LSD, iowaska) with the “plant” versions. The reason that using a synthetic version is preferred is (a) you can be absolutely positive about the dose and (b) you don’t denude the planet of all these plants. The downside is the plants may have some element in them that you miss in the synthesized version. There are some iowaska farms now, but not a lot. So to optimize, you have to go synthetic.

              There was a researcher from Johns Hopkins recently who spoke in Mill Valley at a tiny facility and it overflowed at 400 people. He stated that they have now (a) actually quantified the “mystical experience” scientifically and (b) the dose is over 80% effective in helping people shift their internal narratives by actually having a “mystical experience.” He laid out the tenets of what a “mystical experience” is, and they then trialed whether folks were having them or not. They found that 25 mg of Ketamine produced a “mystical experience” 80% of the time. This is the only legal drug – and of course, it’s just another tool. This might be something to consider around September.

How can you tell if you’re making progress?

One of the best ways is outside observation. You want to aim for “invisibility.” You want to create an “unrecognizable person” compared to the person that harbored an environment that led to the cancer. Also think of Stoicism, and books like Essentialism — You want to stop expending energy unless it is absolutely required of you. Spending that energy means that you can’t spend it on other things (like healing).

How do you “become unrecognizable”? Imagine that there is an “A” list and a “B” list of your entire life. The “A” list contains every single experience you’ve had; the complete set of all life experiences and occurrences. It includes birth, marriage(s – for my hubby), schools, and all the genomics and epigenetics that led to cancer – plus having cancer. To create the “B” list, you just want to take things from the “A” list, but as few as possible. Let the rest go. Stop giving energy to them, give them up, and get them out of your “story.”

Let’s say that means that you bring over 3 of the 10 things that led your body to express the cancer. That’s still going to be okay – because it took all 10 to get there. The idea here is to “shed” the things from the “A” list that aren’t leading to optimal health. Remember to just think “Change is good,” even if you don’t know what that change looks like from where you’re standing in the Present.

Winter will be key. It is the season of the bladder and kidney. So this is all prep for that. Even though there is no “bladder organ” after the surgery, there is a re-built one, and there are 57 points on the bladder channel and meridian that are still active. Those come into their season in winter. So this all needs to be teed up for then.

Sleep:

This is awkward, as, with the neobladder, one has to empty the bladder every two hours (it’s not “bladder material” so if it overstretches, it doesn’t bounce back). What about substances to “Help” you sleep? When asking about using THC/CBD, we were reminded that, while THC improves the “sleep latency” (i.e., the time to fall asleep is shortened), it disrupts the actual sleep cycle. So you don’t get the same restorative/deep sleep. CBD does NOT do this. The goal here is to optimize the REM cycle. Moreover, keeping track is important, because you need to quantify to be able to see what’s working and what’s not. Perhaps find an app, or a sensor, but it is important to really see how sleep is going, and then to address issues. We’re reminded that the temperature of the room for sleep should be low 60s at the highest, and that dropping by 2 degrees F kicks sleep in. No electronics/TV, take some time on getting into bed to “review the day” and get ready to sleep – basically, have a sleep routine.

              There have been studies that show that 2 hours before you “know that an alarm will go off,” you stop having quality sleep. However, if you tell someone that you will wake them up “some time” during the night (not giving them an exact time), they NEVER have REM sleep. As such, the 2 hour “alarm” to get up to void the bladder is not optimal, but it’s necessary. Reminded to ensure that it doesn’t affect my sleep. (NOTE: It usually doesn’t, but if hubby doesn’t get it right off, it WILL wake me up, and then I have to get out of bed. And hence those 4 a.m. Facebook and Instagram posts!)

So, there you go – those are my notes from our second visit to Pine Street. I also have notes from our first visit, but they’re really geared towards the particular type of cancer we were facing (as well as the phased protocol for dealing with chemotherapy), so I thought that these ones might be more universally interesting. As a final tidbit, I’d like to suggest another podcast listen: it’s 5 Ways To Heal Yourself With Dr. Kelly Turner from The mindbodygreen Podcast.

Any questions?

The Cancer Caregiver Life

In just over a week, my husband and I will be going to The Sanoviv Medical Institute for three weeks. I will be updating F&F (friends and family) via this blog on what goes on there. If you just happened upon this blog because you’re searching at 3:00 a.m. for the blogs of other cancer caregivers – well, that’s been me for a year. This is sort of a “precursor” blog to the set of Sanoviv blog posts that will follow – but here’s a bit about my journey.

For more information I can recommend a lot of books and medical articles, but The Emperor of All Maladies is fascinating as the “history” of cancer, going back to ancient Egypt.

We found out about my husband’s bladder cancer about this time last year. I won’t go into the details, but he had been having issues that he hadn’t discussed with anyone, so by the time it was discovered, the tumor was big. After we received the Western medicine protocol, I immediately contacted Michael Broffman at the Pine Street Clinic. Broffman has been in the cancer “arena” for decades and so not only has a big list of what specific oncologists “will and will not do” when it comes to supplements, non-Western treatments, etc., he also (if your oncologist is on his “list”) can help you with how to talk to your oncologist about your situation and your potential desire to use integrative treatments.

Unfortunately when I finally “conned” my husband into seeing Broffman, he was too late stage to get into a couple of clinical studies (one in Italy, one in the U.S.) that Broffman was tied into. He gave us a number of “homework assignments,” one of which was to watch the last 1/3 of the video The Science of Fasting (starting right at about 39 minutes) about Valter Longo. (NOTE: Longo now has his whole “schtick” of supplements, etc. – Broffman didn’t recommend them, so I can’t speak about them.)

Broffman explained that during my husband’s chemotherapy, we needed to follow Longo’s fasting protocol (“FMD”), which closes down more “healthy” cells during the chemotherapy.

Chemotherapy’s “job” is to kill any cell in your body that is splitting while you are getting the treatment. So stopping “healthy” cells from splitting is a great idea. The reason that folks lose their hair (by the way, cold caps don’t work, don’t waste your money), get mouth sores, get neuropathy, etc. is because hair/nerve/mouth/stomach cells split often – so if you’re getting chemotherapy when one is splitting, you’ll kill it. Fasting convinces your “healthy” cells that it’s winter – when they should not be splitting so much. But cancer is stupid. (Bwa-ha-ha-ha DIE M***** F*****!!)

Cancer eats sugar and insulin acts as a “power up,” turning it into the Incredible Hulk. (Yes, this is overbroad, but this post can’t be 92 pages). Since this is the case, during chemotherapy in particular, one needs to keep carbohydrates to a minimum. The focus of Broffman’s supplementation involved supplements during the chemotherapy to help with the poisoning, then ones after the chemotherapy to help get the toxins and dead cells out of the body while staying in ketosis, and then ones to “rebuild” before the next chemotherapy cycle.

This involved a very elaborate calendar for me, the Caregiver, containing which supplements to give at what times. It also involved foods that would help. (Osso Good’s AIP-compliant bone broth, with the Chinese herbs already incorporated, was recommended and super helpful.)

The sad thing is that chemotherapy units – now made as comfortable as possible with personal TVs, lounge chairs, acupuncture and social workers – are awash in crappy, high carb food. Everything from “nutrition bars” to ice cream to the beloved Saltine cracker for nausea. The nurses were horrified when my husband would tell them not only that he was fasting, but also that he was coming into chemo on a fast. Everyone else is munching away on ice cream, pizza, cookies, Saltines, or whatever else made them feel better about being hooked up to a gigantic bag of poison for hours and hours. And every munch feeds their cancer.

We had provided the medical articles to our oncologist with respect to the fasting, so he had written in our file that we shouldn’t be “forced to” eat. Broffman had looked our oncologist up in his notes, and explained to us that – while he resembles “Bill and Ted’s Excellent Oncologist” with his spiky hair and vocal fry – the only way to get this particular doctor to agree that we could do what we wanted to do was to provide him with Western Medicine articles that showed that while a protocol (like fasting) might be difficult to do, it actually works. Most articles, in fact, stated that the fasting protocol worked better than anything else that was in trial; however, folks just didn’t stick to it. “Give me that Rocky Road Ice Cream, Ma, I have cancer, I’m on chemo, and feel like trash! And hand me a Saltine while you’re at it.”

I have, quite literally, a novel that I wrote after we saw Broffman, as well as the articles he recommended. If you’re interested in it, let me know in the comments. It talks through the entire Pine Street Clinic visit, and goes into great detail about the Phase I, II, III protocol during chemotherapy. We also re-visited Broffman a month or so ago, and I have another 10 pages of notes from him regarding where we are now.

My husband’s surgeon told him that there was basically “no way” that his bladder could be rebuilt after the surgery, but we did everything that was recommended by Broffman to get the best possible result, and the urologist’s assistant called me during the surgery to tell me that they were, indeed, able to build him an internal bladder. The whole surgery story and me terrorizing the poor intake nurse is for another day.

My husband was cancer-free for six months, then a tumor showed up in each lung. One was in the middle of the inferior lobe on his right side (three lobes on the right side, two on the left). The one in the left lung was (cue Louisiana-accented thoracic surgeon) “Snuggled r’aht up next to his ay-OR-ta” – so – impossible to operate. While the tumor in the right lung could be cut out either by cutting a “wedge” out of his lung or taking the whole lobe, the left tumor couldn’t be dealt with at all.

I asked the surgeon what he’d do and he laughed, saying: “Well, you go to a barber, he’s not gunna tell you not to get your hair cut,” but then we talked through what would happen if we did the “cyberknife” treatment that he was recommending on the left side to the tumor on the right. He said that the only issue would be the inability to biopsy the tumor . . . but in doing the surgery, my hubby would be left with 2/3 of his right lung. We opted to go find out about what “cyberknife” treatment was all about.

After discussion with the Chief of our various options (my new girl crush…), we decided to do SRS (stereotactic radiosurgery) on both tumors. As she reiterated, the downside of not being able to do a biopsy is the inability to see if this is the bladder cancer moving into the lungs, or if it is a “new” cancer (lung cancer), because the SRS obliterates the tumors. SRS is really quite amazing technology – I have a bunch of notes on that, too.

Lung cancer is a tough cancer – I had a friend die of it who had never smoked a day in her life, never lived around smoke, etc. When you tell someone that you have lung cancer, they look down their nose at you as if to say “Well, if you hadn’t smoked 12 packs of cigarettes a day for 10 years, you wouldn’t be in this position.” Just because >75% of lung cancers are in smokers doesn’t mean that it’s 100%. That said, we wouldn’t know whether the cancer was now lung cancer or was just migrating bladder cancer, as we would be blasting the tumors to smitherines.

A friend of mine’s family is tied to Sanoviv; that is how it was originally recommended. I had tried to get my hubby to agree to go to do their cancer-related protocol after his bladder cancer surgery. He had felt that the tests showed him to be ‘cancer free,’ so why spend all that money? As soon as the cancer was back, he agreed to go once the SRS treatment was completed.

We will be at Sanoviv, doing their Cancer Program, from mid-June to mid-July. The program is full-immersion and quite pricey, but we checked out two other integrative cancer treatment hospitals (one in Europe, one in Israel) and in actual fact, this program not only involves less travel but winds up being less expensive than the others we researched. I’ll be going too – a caregiver gets to go for $100/day, which includes all non-treatment related offerings (e.g., meals, the pools, room, etc.). HERE is their general description of what to bring/not bring/etc.

Every day apparently starts with meditation on the cliffside overlooking the ocean, then “grounding” on their chemical-free lawn in your bare feet, and yoga. You are given your schedule the night before at dinner and walked through it with your doctor, so you know what’s expected. While hubby is at treatment, I am expected to go to workshops on subjects such as functional nutrition, supplementation, how to transition from Sanoviv, and the like. The treatments are not only physical but also mental – you can see some of that if you poke around the Internet and the Sanoviv Programs.

As I understand it, we will be in two different bedrooms with the same “sitting room,” because the program involves detoxing. That means no wife in ze bed! :-) This also means that you show up with underwear, a bathing suit, and a sun hat – everything else is provided to you. Yes – shampoo, conditioner, soap, toothpaste, clothing, shoes (Birkenstocks), socks, etc. Really! No makeup, no nail polish (just took mine off in fact), only one of a couple of sunblocks (they sell it, or you can bring it), no plastic or plastic bottles, even if BPA-free, and – yes – no electronics.

Your “sitting room” has a balcony overlooking the ocean, a mini-trampoline, infrared sauna, chi machine, and wall racks to do stretching. You’re expected to do at least 15 minutes of “rebounding” on the mini-tramp daily, plus use the infrared sauna and the chi machine. The TV in the room only has two channels – I believe it’s Discovery Channel and National Geographic Channel – because they want you to detox from that, as well.

There is a separate room at the facility where you can use your/their computer, but it is the only place on “campus” where wifi is allowed, as it’s considered something that you need to “detox” from. This will be interesting for me, because I will need to work when hubby doesn’t need me. As I was writing up this blog, I actually emailed our Admissions guy to ask about this, and he said that if your computer has “an Ethernet port,” that you can connect in your room. Of course, most newer laptops have USB 3.0 ports /HDMI ports, but no Ethernet port. While hubby was researching getting an adapter so that I can at least do some work (and particularly teleconferences, of which I know I have to attend at least one) outside the “computer room” I happened to mention it to a client – the next day, an Amazon package showed up, with 2 adapters, and a long and a short Ethernet cable! I had to laugh at that!

I have been reading a number of write-ups on Sanoviv, though the ones that I can find are all written by folks who went for a one-week “cleanse”/detox-type protocol. So that’s why I felt that I should try to blog about what happens during the cancer program. HERE is an example, that shows you “what you get” at Sanoviv – HERE is another. HERE is a third.

That said, there isn’t one write-up about their fitness center! They have “Zumba” classes and “salsa” – but nothing “Strength-ish.” I was told by the Admissions person that there are “a few ellipticals and some dumbbells, but not heavy.” Since I have been working really hard on strength and HIIT training, my gym owner (bless him) crafted a workout for me for the time I will be gone. I will be bringing a TRX, some resistance bands, and an EmPack and 3 reservoirs. So we’ll see how that goes, too!

The Sanoviv diet is basically plant-centric, with no caffeine, dairy, soy, sugar, toxins, alcohol, corn, gluten, etc. They have a garden and a lot of what you eat is grown there. They also have organic/raised chickens and eggs, plus fish at some meals. (I’m allergic to fish, but that was noted in my intake.)

This will be a big difference for us – and we’re drinking all the wine we can before we go (ha ha – um, kinda joking). We eat very clean and pretty “primal” – organic veg/fruit, grass-fed meat – no soy, corn, sugars, gluten, etc. – but we know that our portion control is lax. We do our best to eat in a 12 hour window, though Broffman had told us it would be better to winnow it down to 10 (and that’s Sanoviv’s system). We also have meat every dinner – I’m looking forward to learning some new recipes (and have been boning up on them also through the Thug Kitchen cookbooks!)

I mentioned to Admissions that, because of my migraines (written about before), I have 2 cups of coffee a day. They are vasodialator migraines – caffeine helps. He said I would need a prescription and to take it as a pill. So I talked to my doctor, and she told me what to buy, which I did. Any meds that you take have to come in their bottles (not in a weekly/daily pill container), and you’re not to bring any non-prescribed supplements.

(Speaking of supplements and nutrition, I am binge listening to The Funk’tional Nutrition Podcast, because a client of mine was on it. They’re GREAT! If you’re a ‘Nutrition Nerd’ like I am, they really know their stuff.)

So that’s about all I have to say in this “introduction” to what we’ll be doing from mid-June to mid-July.

Work has been insane recently which is great for my wallet but tough for getting prepared to go. That said . . . I mean, how prepared can you get when you are just packing undies and a hat? :-)

What are my expectations? I expect that hubby will be pretty sick the first week (we were told as much). I expect that we will both likely lose some weight since we will be portion-controlled and won’t have, oh, say, cheese. :-) I have set a goal to do the workout that my trainer has given me each day, whatever that takes. I plan to take notes and then blog each day or at least every other, and write up what’s going on so that there is a comprehensive log of it all. I plan to check work email a couple times a day, if the building that has the “computer room” isn’t too far away and the wifi is working (apparently somewhat dicey).

If you’ve gotten this far, bless you! You are either a devoted F&F, or perhaps a previous blog subscriber who didn’t unsubscribe when I went “radio silent” for about a year. (Now you know what I’ve been, sadly, up to. Caregiving takes every free moment, that’s for sure.)

I’ll be reading all the Comments when I get on the computer at Sanoviv. So if you have any questions, etc. let me know – or if you just want to say Hi! As per the whole “no electronics” thing, I’m bringing a couple books (yes, paper), but don’t plan to access Instagram, Facebook, or even personal email while gone. We’ll see how THAT goes! So if you’re in that “F&F” category, keep me company by commenting.

Onward!

Green Living Guide

Hey all!

I received a note from Kendra at (of all things) CouponChef.com related to one of my podcasts – from 10 years ago! (Yes, everything on the Internet really does live forever!) I liked what she sent, and I think you might too. (If you haven’t checked out this podcast, just know that the Listener Call-In Line is no more – what can I say, it’s been a decade . . . ) That said, here’s her email:

Hi there, I listened to your podcast about living more ‘Green’ – thanks!

I’ve been looking for some resources about green living online. I’m glad your website has content that could be useful to people looking to reduce their impact on the environment. We at Coupon Chief recently created a massive guide about inexpensive ways to go green. It includes up-to-date information and special tips to help people adopt a more Earth-friendly lifestyle without draining their wallets. We’re hoping it’s worth linking to along with your other resources!

If you think that it could be valuable to your readers, here’s the link to our Green Living guide. It took us a lot of time and effort to put this together, so I hope you (and your Bond Grrl readers!) like it!

Best,
Kendra

I am not quite sure how CouponChef.com decided to write such a detailed guide, but I think that it has a lot of good reminders and some very good information. Maybe I’m just impressed that someone found a podcast of mine from a decade ago, listened to it, and decided to write because of it!

Make it a great day,

Sandy

Career Success through the Management of Stress – by Julie Morris

Business owners and workaholics often live in a world with quick turnarounds and tight deadlines. Operating in an entrepreneurial environment leads to high-pressure situations that can easily fray the nerves, especially when you’re trying to find the right balance between work and the responsibilities of life outside the office. Perhaps you are starting a new business and trying to score a big promotion, or perhaps you’re a single parent trying to make ends meet. Whatever the cause of your career stress, there are ways to achieve new goals while reducing that stress.

Sweating Stress Away

Stress is an inevitable part of our everyday lives. While it is impossible to entirely eliminate stress, maintaining or improving your physical condition can be helpful to your mental state. Not only can it elevate your concentration and overall cognitive functions, but it can also reduce tiredness and fatigue. In addition, exercise provides an outlet for either solitude (when you’re craving alone-time) or the ability to “sweatwork” and meet people who might be able to help you in your career pursuits.

Eating Right

For those burning the midnight oil, it might be difficult to find time to stop for a bite with deadlines quickly approaching. Diets are usually the first thing we sacrifice to help us stay on the go. However, what you eat and drink can have a profound impact on the way you feel, especially when you’re unable to break for meals. Fast food and junk food might provide a boost of energy and comfort in the moment, but what they lack in nutritional value can ultimately leave you feeling sluggish and morose. Small changes to your dietary intake can help you start feeling better while allowing you to implement better nutritional habits with your family at home.

Getting Enough Sleep

A good night’s rest is important for your physical and emotional health. Insufficient sleep can leave you feeling exhausted and overwhelmed, which doesn’t bode well for work performance or stress. In fact, not getting enough sleep has an adverse effect on your ability to quickly and decisively manage tasks and perform at work. If you’re constantly on call, you might want to consider turning off your phone and other devices before bed or leaving them in a separate room. Even an additional hour of sleep at night can have positive effects on your efficiency during working hours.

Going Alternative

If finding time to sleep or exercise proves to be too much of a challenge, a remedy such as CBD oil can help reduce stress. CBD has been shown to host a slew of benefits, from sleep improvements to anxiety relief to pain management. Do your due diligence by researching manufacturers and finding the best quality product, and since oil is not for everyone, CBD does come in other forms, like vape oil. As with any new treatment, be it CBD or something else, be sure to discuss it with your doctor first.

Self-Caring

The thought of taking time out of your busy schedule for a little self-indulgence might be a foreign idea, but it’s something every busy person should embrace. By carving out a little bit of time to pamper yourself, you’ll feel fresh and recharged. Work can slowly cause changes to your identity, so remember to spend time outside the office to enjoy fun activities with the people you treasure.

Whether you are a lady-boss entrepreneur or a busy professional, it’s important to set realistic expectations while cutting yourself a little slack. Your career could even slow down when you’re moving too fast. In order to grow professionally, you might have to step back a little. First, cope with the stress. Second, set yourself up to achieve your professional goals without sacrificing your health. You’ll hopefully be able to find the balance between your work goals and your mental health, a balance that will help you move full speed ahead onto the next phase in your career.

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Julie Morris is a Life and Career Coach, and can be found at JulieMorris.Org.